Back where I feel most comfortable

I'm sitting here, on a Monday morning (now afternoon), thinking about how this is where I feel most comfortable. I'm in front of my computer and have been for the past couple of hours, listening to music, half looking at homework, checking out a bunch of different blogs, and thinking about everything and anything that crosses my mind. I've just finished my winter clinical rotation for physical therapy, and I've never felt better. Because of the time constraints I was under while completing my clinical, I was rarely online, and I missed it sorely. I suppose that is a good indication that I'm addicted to the internet, and if that's the case, then so be it. I honestly love nothing more than perusing the internet and listening to my favorite music. Today is even better because I've discovered my new favorite song. (Listen to it! It's amazing!) Secondly, it's my birthday, and to be honest, I just feel better on my birthday. I love being on social media and seeing people interact with me on these sites is something I really enjoy, maybe too much, and today people are wishing me a happy birthday and making me feel even happier than I have been. It sounds self-centered and juvenile, I know, but that's just me. In any case, this is a perfect day for me. I love all of this. I'm alone, but I don't care. I'm happy where I'm at. I'm here and I'm comfortable.

I'm baaaaack!

It's time for something new! I'm going to write on this thing more than I ever have before, and you guys are going to wish I was going to go back to how it was... but sorry, that's how it's going to be! Well, here goes: I'm an addict. I'm obsessed with social media. I find myself checking Facebook and Twitter as often as I can, and whenever I see that there's something, anything, new, I'm all over it. It's kind of sickening, to tell you the truth. I have so many other things I could be doing that are more productive, but THIS is how I spend my time. I'm emotionally invested in being on top of what everyone is doing and I NEED to be be in the know. I feel so out of the loop if I haven't seen the latest status updates or tweets from the past few hours. In all honesty, it's pretty pathetic. I suppose it stems from a bit of insecurity, but that's a whole other story. I guess what you should take away from this is, if I'm your friend on Facebook, or follow you on Twitter, I'm your best friend because I read what you put online as soon as it goes up, or quite soon after. So keep putting up your personal life! I'm here to read it!

Here I am again!

Lookee here! It's 1:30 am, and I'm awake! I love not being able to sleep. It is such a wonderful gift. I'm blaming this on the hour workout I finished 20 minutes before bed time. I think I read somewhere that it's not a good idea to do that... Oh well!

I don't have many interesting things to say, other than I've forgotten much of how I use to look at Ohio State. I just read Jessica's blog and I saw she was tired of the left slant that is pushed on to the students, and I have to say I haven't thought of it much since I've graduated. I find it odd that once I'm completely removed from a situation, (like an undergraduate degree from Ohio State) I have settled back into who I was raised to be, and not a liberal junkie that questions the truths that my parents had raised me in.

Anyway, that's my thought for the night... nothing at all interesting.

Read it and weep.

I've been told by someone (probably the only person that's ever seen this blog) that I needed to make an update. It's true, since I've not written on here for lengthy amount of time. So here it goes: This week has been one of the laziest I've had in a very long time. I've only worked about 8 hours this week due to cancellations and visitations during my shifts. I've been feebly attempting to keep myself busy by preparing (both mentally and physically :) ) for the Race for the Cure 5k run that's coming up in about a week and a half, but other than that I've done so very little. It's hard to keep my mind occupied when it seems to drift to worrying about the acceptance letter that I so dearly would love to receive...

In any case, it has been a mundane week. There has been very little to look forward to. When all of your friends are busy with work and school, and your work has been mightily diminished, it's hard to think of things that could keep you occupied, or at least not bored. I heard blink-182 might release a new song today... That would keep me interested for about 10 minutes. Let's hope some other catastrophes emerge that are slightly more compelling than the swine flu or Miss California's stance on gay marriage... Maybe another hostage situation? That was pretty interesting.

Jessica told me the other day that she falls asleep writing blogs that never get posted because she has so many "crazy things" in her head that she needs to get out. That makes me feel like quite the uninteresting person, because I'm not troubled by thoughts to that degree. It's quite the contrary -- I fall asleep pretty easily no matter where I am. I must be mundane. That's a pretty depressing thought - how mundane my life is. Maybe that will keep me up at night, thinking about how bland my life is and how I could spruce it up.

It's crazy that...

I feel so very differently depending on where I'm at. The biggest difference in how I view life comes when I'm visiting my parents at their home, which is in a totally different world than where my apartment is. When I'm in my apartment, here in the "big city", I don't feel so regretful of some of my decisions. I don't feel as bad on some of the purchases I've made, both irrational and necessary. But when I'm at home, I feel like I should have saved every penny I've ever made, never done anything but study with my free time, and basically been a better kid to my parents. It's not like they put pressure on me or tell me how many times I've messed up, nor do they ever really hint at it. But for some reason I feel like I've made a lot more mistakes when I'm a home. It's kind of frightening because I'm making the big move home here in 5 months, so hopefully I won't feel like a complete failure while I am living at home and continuing my schooling. And hopefully I'll love my "investment" in an iPhone as much as I do now, even though the service sucks out there... I hope it's all worth it!

Yikes! Moving home seems daunting.

This is my free time.

The only time I feel like I have time (or have the ambition to make a priority to) write on this blog is on a Friday or Saturday early a.m. (On a side note, I started looking on this site at 1:53 and now the time is 3:12. "Springing Forward" is so terribly inconsiderate. I just lost a valuable hour of sleep). I write here in an attempt to "spit out" how I feel at the moment, and I wish I had more time and opportunities to get on here and write, but unfortunately only the feelings I have on Friday or Saturday have a chance to be written out. I am so overly frustrated with the lack of communication I've been able to have with Jessica. The primary and most convenient way to communicate is text messages, but since AT&T feels the need to charge outrageous international text rate, that form is out the window. Skype isn't that much cheaper, and it's so hard to arrange a time for both of us to be able to talk. I figured I'd be able to adjust to the decline in conversation, and at first I was just sad about it all, but now I'm flat out annoyed. Es muy molestando. Solamento quiero a hablar con Jessica un tiempo poco durante cada dia, para, mucho de el dias es imposible. Basically I'm annoyed. I can't wait for her to come home and spend some good ole' quality time with me.

That's all I've got. It's way too late for me to write a lot. I'm kind of a lightweight.

Top 5 best albums ever. (according to me)

I don't care if anyone reads this, or cares, or disagrees with me. These are my top five favorite albums.

1. Kanye West - Graduation. This album has MAYBE one boring, skippable song on it. Every other one is amazing.

2. Newsboys - Step up to the Microphone. After skipping the title track, the rest of the album is a classic. Every song is a sing along.

3. Underoath - They're only chasing safety. This album is a metal album, but the songs on it are great. I have listened to this album maybe more times than any other album

4. Ray LaMontagne - Gossip in the Grain. What more do I have to say about Ray?

5. Blink-182 - Take Off Your Pants and Jacket. I personally think this is the best album from a band that put out 3 very, very good records. They had a ton of catchy songs and all of them were easy sing along's and a ton of fun.