It's crazy that...

I feel so very differently depending on where I'm at. The biggest difference in how I view life comes when I'm visiting my parents at their home, which is in a totally different world than where my apartment is. When I'm in my apartment, here in the "big city", I don't feel so regretful of some of my decisions. I don't feel as bad on some of the purchases I've made, both irrational and necessary. But when I'm at home, I feel like I should have saved every penny I've ever made, never done anything but study with my free time, and basically been a better kid to my parents. It's not like they put pressure on me or tell me how many times I've messed up, nor do they ever really hint at it. But for some reason I feel like I've made a lot more mistakes when I'm a home. It's kind of frightening because I'm making the big move home here in 5 months, so hopefully I won't feel like a complete failure while I am living at home and continuing my schooling. And hopefully I'll love my "investment" in an iPhone as much as I do now, even though the service sucks out there... I hope it's all worth it!

Yikes! Moving home seems daunting.