Here I am again!

Lookee here! It's 1:30 am, and I'm awake! I love not being able to sleep. It is such a wonderful gift. I'm blaming this on the hour workout I finished 20 minutes before bed time. I think I read somewhere that it's not a good idea to do that... Oh well!

I don't have many interesting things to say, other than I've forgotten much of how I use to look at Ohio State. I just read Jessica's blog and I saw she was tired of the left slant that is pushed on to the students, and I have to say I haven't thought of it much since I've graduated. I find it odd that once I'm completely removed from a situation, (like an undergraduate degree from Ohio State) I have settled back into who I was raised to be, and not a liberal junkie that questions the truths that my parents had raised me in.

Anyway, that's my thought for the night... nothing at all interesting.

Read it and weep.

I've been told by someone (probably the only person that's ever seen this blog) that I needed to make an update. It's true, since I've not written on here for lengthy amount of time. So here it goes: This week has been one of the laziest I've had in a very long time. I've only worked about 8 hours this week due to cancellations and visitations during my shifts. I've been feebly attempting to keep myself busy by preparing (both mentally and physically :) ) for the Race for the Cure 5k run that's coming up in about a week and a half, but other than that I've done so very little. It's hard to keep my mind occupied when it seems to drift to worrying about the acceptance letter that I so dearly would love to receive...

In any case, it has been a mundane week. There has been very little to look forward to. When all of your friends are busy with work and school, and your work has been mightily diminished, it's hard to think of things that could keep you occupied, or at least not bored. I heard blink-182 might release a new song today... That would keep me interested for about 10 minutes. Let's hope some other catastrophes emerge that are slightly more compelling than the swine flu or Miss California's stance on gay marriage... Maybe another hostage situation? That was pretty interesting.

Jessica told me the other day that she falls asleep writing blogs that never get posted because she has so many "crazy things" in her head that she needs to get out. That makes me feel like quite the uninteresting person, because I'm not troubled by thoughts to that degree. It's quite the contrary -- I fall asleep pretty easily no matter where I am. I must be mundane. That's a pretty depressing thought - how mundane my life is. Maybe that will keep me up at night, thinking about how bland my life is and how I could spruce it up.

It's crazy that...

I feel so very differently depending on where I'm at. The biggest difference in how I view life comes when I'm visiting my parents at their home, which is in a totally different world than where my apartment is. When I'm in my apartment, here in the "big city", I don't feel so regretful of some of my decisions. I don't feel as bad on some of the purchases I've made, both irrational and necessary. But when I'm at home, I feel like I should have saved every penny I've ever made, never done anything but study with my free time, and basically been a better kid to my parents. It's not like they put pressure on me or tell me how many times I've messed up, nor do they ever really hint at it. But for some reason I feel like I've made a lot more mistakes when I'm a home. It's kind of frightening because I'm making the big move home here in 5 months, so hopefully I won't feel like a complete failure while I am living at home and continuing my schooling. And hopefully I'll love my "investment" in an iPhone as much as I do now, even though the service sucks out there... I hope it's all worth it!

Yikes! Moving home seems daunting.

This is my free time.

The only time I feel like I have time (or have the ambition to make a priority to) write on this blog is on a Friday or Saturday early a.m. (On a side note, I started looking on this site at 1:53 and now the time is 3:12. "Springing Forward" is so terribly inconsiderate. I just lost a valuable hour of sleep). I write here in an attempt to "spit out" how I feel at the moment, and I wish I had more time and opportunities to get on here and write, but unfortunately only the feelings I have on Friday or Saturday have a chance to be written out. I am so overly frustrated with the lack of communication I've been able to have with Jessica. The primary and most convenient way to communicate is text messages, but since AT&T feels the need to charge outrageous international text rate, that form is out the window. Skype isn't that much cheaper, and it's so hard to arrange a time for both of us to be able to talk. I figured I'd be able to adjust to the decline in conversation, and at first I was just sad about it all, but now I'm flat out annoyed. Es muy molestando. Solamento quiero a hablar con Jessica un tiempo poco durante cada dia, para, mucho de el dias es imposible. Basically I'm annoyed. I can't wait for her to come home and spend some good ole' quality time with me.

That's all I've got. It's way too late for me to write a lot. I'm kind of a lightweight.

Top 5 best albums ever. (according to me)

I don't care if anyone reads this, or cares, or disagrees with me. These are my top five favorite albums.

1. Kanye West - Graduation. This album has MAYBE one boring, skippable song on it. Every other one is amazing.

2. Newsboys - Step up to the Microphone. After skipping the title track, the rest of the album is a classic. Every song is a sing along.

3. Underoath - They're only chasing safety. This album is a metal album, but the songs on it are great. I have listened to this album maybe more times than any other album

4. Ray LaMontagne - Gossip in the Grain. What more do I have to say about Ray?

5. Blink-182 - Take Off Your Pants and Jacket. I personally think this is the best album from a band that put out 3 very, very good records. They had a ton of catchy songs and all of them were easy sing along's and a ton of fun.

Procrastination.

So I have this examination tomorrow, in Anatomy, which has routinely kicked my butt. But instead of studying, I have effectively surfed the internet, done other homework, watched a t.v show, and chatted / texted my friends. What a grand idea. I actually love procrastinating, but I really should work..... right? I just can't wait for graduation. I'm 100% ready to be done with school. I don't think anyone could understand how much I look forward to March 22nd, when I walk up and receive that diploma. I might try to run off with it without waiting for the end of the ceremony. I'll be that excited. At this point I'm dreaming of the vacation that I would love to take this summer to Phoenix, but this time I want to take my lady Jessica, so hopefully that will work out. To me, Phoenix sounds like the difference between heaven and hell compared to good ole' Ohio State right now. I can't really complain; This place has treated me very well. I'm just ready to move on to another portion of my life where I'm not perpetually broke.

My head is going to explode. I'm studying anatomy for a quiz tomorrow and the information on the head and brain is just so in depth. It's so hard to take it all in. I am going absolutely crazy. I miss Jessica too. I haven't talked to her for 4 days now and that's a really long time to me. I hate this week already and it's only monday! 

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Today is Sunday, February 22nd, and the significance of that date to me is that it is one day after my birthday. In the middle of an Ohio winter, this is the one thing to look forward to. Now that it's over, I pretty much am stuck to hoping this next month flies. I'm almost done with school and I want it to be over so badly. I've never been so sick of school. On top of that, I really miss talking to Jessica. I haven't talked to her in what seems like a terribly long time. It's so frustrating. this is a really annoying night.

Late Night Confessional.

It's 4:20 and I've been awake for one and a half hours now, which is extremely frustrating. I went to bed at about 8 last night because I had a splitting headache, but I didn't fall asleep until close to 11. I woke up at 2:30 and haven't been able to sleep since. Unfortunately, all the little tricks that usually help me to drift off to la la land haven't worked tonight. I've listened slow music, I've counted sheep, I've thought all the wonderful happy thoughts that a person could imagine, but still, sleep evades me. I only wish I could get enough sleep so that I can wake up at a decent time and not feel like a soggy piece of wood. 

Tomorrow I want to get a lot done. I'm a little behind on some of my homework, and I thought that getting up early would give me the perfect opportunity to catch up a bit. If I don't get to sleep soon, I won't be doing ANYTHING but sleeping. 

It's going on a month and a half now since Jessica has been gone and it gets a little worse everyday. I never thought that I would miss her as much as I do, but it's such and adjustment to move from talking everyday about all the little details in your life to only talking for a small amount every few days  and trying to decide what is important to talk about, since time is so limited. Plus, the internet connection is so unreliable, it's extremely frustrating to try to hold a conversation whilst being cut off every 30 seconds. 

Lately I've been wishing I would have gone into journalism instead of striving for a degree in Physical Therapy, of which I'm not 100% sure I'll be able to obtain. By no means do I think that I am a talented writer, but I love to write. I'm not sure if the job market is in any way open to writers (I'm assuming it's not, since just about every profession seems to be taking multiple hits) but I think it would be fulfilling to be able to write about something you enjoy for a living. I guess the internet bloggers have the ideal job; They talk about what they enjoy and they get paid because people want to read what they have to say. That sounds wonderful. I'm jealous of Jessica because she's an awesome writer and she always has interesting things to say. I wish she wrote on her blog more often! (hint hint).

Graduation is coming up fast! I can't believe I'm graduating. I know that I won't do anything in the field of study that I'm supposed to be educated in, but just the fact that I've made it through is exciting. I hope having a degree opens up a few doors for me, but I can't see how a sociology degree is attractive to any employers. Who cares about sociology? Not most people. I guess I've put all my eggs in the the PT basket. I just hope I don't spill it. I feel like I'm going to be one of those poster children for people that get out of school and don't do anything with their degree-- I'll end up working at a fast food restaurant, $50,000 in debt in school loans, doing something I could have been doing the whole time while avoiding the black hole of loans. I'm so scared to start paying these. I have a feeling it's going to be awful. 

Well, that's about all my thoughts for the morning. I hope if anyone reads this, they feel like they know how I feel about my life just a little bit better than before they read this. Enjoy your sleep everyone!

Thursdays.

Ever since college started, I've been hearing that Thursdays are the beginning of the weekend. I guess the fact that many people didn't have classes on Friday led to the thinking that partying on a Thursday night would be ideal. The problem arrises, though, when many people actually DID have classes (or work) on Fridays, but since some of their friends didn't, they would be persuaded to come out and stay up late and possibly drink as well. Unfortunately, it's all to easy to get into this type of habit: staying up late on Thursdays because of the proximity to the weekend. It really is too bad too, when all your friends go out and you're trying to get some sleep and you don't get to hang out with them that night. 

Just my two cents on the matter.

American things.

Today is the first warm day of January. It's only 36 degrees, but compared to the nasty weather we have been having here lately, it feels like spring. It's sunny too; it's almost a small miracle to have a sunny, warm day here in Ohio in the winter. I love it. Today is one of those days where there are so many things to be thankful for. It's sunny and beautiful for a January afternoon on campus, my computer was fixed for free and the $1,240 fee was waived, and I got to spend all afternoon with my friends. What a great day. 

Senior-itis is really starting to set in. I only have about 8 weeks left in school, but it's dragging by. I can't believe it's only been 3 weeks into this quarter. I just want to be done! It's crazy. 4 years flew by so quickly. 

Jessica has been in Ecuador for about 3 weeks now! It's crazy. She seems to be having a good time and she said she's learning a LOT of spanish, so that's great! I miss her a lot sometimes. It's difficult when you're used to talking to someone everyday, multiple times a day, and then you can't talk to them except through email. It's quite an adjustment. She'll be home soon enough though, and it will be great to see her. 

Come back soon JC!